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I did go to the Kehlani show. It was a vibe. I loved the Cabana venue. I loved seeing the views of the CN Tower and the water. My TikTok from the show got me to 4, 800 likes. I can't believe it. I hope I make it to 5, 000 and then 10k. I hope that I get to go to New York one day. I would love that. I'm going to Sugar Beach this Friday. I'm just going to grab some snacks and an Arizona Hard and just lay in the sun with my journal. I also want to see the Van Gough Exhibit. Those are my last two summer things. Summer slipped away. It always does. You think you have so much time and then BAM. It's over. I hope that a year from now I'm done school and in a better place mentally. I also hope that I will meet someone kind. I wrote about being afraid to fall into the unknown. Being scared of letting go. But maybe the letting go is what's going to get me to where I need to be. I also applied to Lovisa. I'm tired of letting people have chance after chance. I'm tired of trusting people for free. I'm tired of being so forgiving when people hurt me. I'm tired of chasing people down. I can't do it anymore. I have to put me first. I care about people, I don't think that's a bad thing. But I have to care about me more, even though it feels scary. Even though I keep thinking that if only this person did this then I would be okay. But I have to make myself okay. In the sense that I take care of myself and put up boundaries. I always thought that was such a harsh word. I think I might come up with my own word. But I'm learning that boundaries are important. And maybe not everyone has to know what they are. But I have to know. And I can just implement them without making a fuss about it. It doesn't have to make noise to be important. It's heavy but I'm learning.